I wish you were here tonight with me. I wish I could take back all that I had said and tell you all that I have always wanted to… but never could. I wish we could walk down the roads that bear our footprints. I wish I could just sit with you without feeling the need to explain myself. I wish that it was yesterday once more when we would spend hours in the dark of the night relishing the company of each other. The night would play her symphony and we would come even closer.
Today, I lie on my bed and within minutes I’m off to a dreamless sleep. It’s been ages since I touched you, felt your presence beside me or looked into your eyes, your heart, your soul.
I wish we were friends again.
I wish I knew what I am searching for, every single day of my meaningless existence. The adrenalin rush of numbers keeps me going but I know that in reality I just move from one quicksand to another.
Silence, my old friend, I wish you were here tonight with me. I’m afraid of the city I love, I hear footsteps of impending doom and I smell the decay all around. Life is creaking and screaming and struggling with all its might and I am no longer the carefree soul that I once was.
Help me silence. Take me back again. Let me embrace you and be a part of you once again. Let me live before I die.