December 01, 2010

Reversing the Digits

It’s the night before I turn 28. And I have been drinking for a few hours now. For a change it’s not water, Red Bull or Diet Coke. Didi has given the most adult and awesome birthday gift ever. It’s like I am finally growing up. I just finished a whole pack of brandy liquor chocolates. I am a little high just thinking about it and there’s Teachers left and some more and to follow them up are my favourite dark chocolates. The last of my worldly sins - Somehow the scene from Matrix comes floating. It’s the way Cypher describes the Matrix.

“You know, I know this steak doesn't exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize? Ignorance is bliss.”

The microbe lady asked last week how I can stay awesome always. I think I don’t. But when I need to talk I write and that helps.

I think the world works in strange ways. It shows signs and symbols which we can’t make head or tail of. But we fervently hope they hold a meaning. In those strange sightings we delve deep to find directions for truly there are none that we can find with open eyes. Sometimes you need to just fall and hope for the wings to come out. The wings are not an answer in the end. The butterfly and the bat, the good and the evil, the manifestations are large and many. But who ever dreamt of the Devil without first fearing the wrath of God.

Pain, hurt, suffering if thought more of has the ability to increase their power over us and yet we embrace them and sing about them but to break the bleak shades of grey, you just need one mirthful voice ringing across the chasms of your heart. And slowly the void fills with a glow and you know that life once again is worth living.

We wish for friends to come back, we wish for a hand brushing against the cheek signalling that all indeed is well. Dreams begin to fade, the façade grows stronger till the charades become a reality. And then the aura spreads from a client con call saying there is hope, there is still hope.

I am home for my birthday and just before I turned a year younger I was talking to the kid who grew up and she suggested the name for this post. I think nothing suits the mood better than what she said. Kids these days!!! They act so grown up.

That’s applicable to my niece as well I guess. Finally a woman who speaks her mind and tells me exactly what she wants me to do. Phew!!!

And yeah the digits are reversed J Figure it out!!!


Kavity said...

That you were born in 82 and you are turning 28?
However simplistic or complicated the explanation for the title, wish you a very very happy birthday :)

VIBGYOR said...

Microbe lady is like how Dharmendra (a botany professor) is referred to as "ghaas phoos ka doctor" in Chupke Chupke. :(
Nice observation on the digits!
One last thing - please tell me this isnt the only form of alcohol you have tasted!

Shreya said...

Happy Birthday. I too, am 82 born and 28 was turned by me this year. Was a ghastly experience. Could have been worse though. It could have been 29!
Btw, you are the only deep thinker I know who exudes happiness! Quite a paradox! :D